[unsuitable for those seeking lameness here] well, its time i do some reflection. half of the holis are gone and all i did was..
1. video hunting 2. pic hunting 3. slp 4. spend money 5. staying overnite 6. slack like no tmr.
OH GOD. ridiculous man. i was supposed to get a job and earn some pocket money. in the end. aiya. use mouth only. cuz all the words i said are free also wad.
anyway, i know my mum rly disapproved me of not returning home. but seriously to me a house to me is another place to stay. i rly cant feel any family warmth from here. DEAD. COLD. LIFELESS. wadever u wanna name it. my stupid vocabs are also limited. the truth is, i really really hate going back home.
wherelse, at jagiya (jy) place, i could always feel the family warmness. the laughter. damn loud oso. a place where u would wan to be and call it "HOME" i am really really happy staying there. but also a pest to them as i kp on impose them. mianne jagiya. =(
thanks to her mum and jagiya herself, at least i feel that i am heard, someone is there to care for me. is not like when u return home, mum is slping, nothing to talk abt except for "mei ah, eat any" i rather be a little poorer financially but recieve lots and lots of love from both of my parents.
m1 gives lots of care and concern to me. was really really glad that he is also there when i needed someone. so SUPER grateful~
although expressing all my thoughts here wun change anything, but at least i feel better, hell lot man.
so people, if u and ur siblings always quarrel, parents always naggin at you, just be extra and super duper thankful to have all these rather than having silence. you might say that "hey, look at other families whose situation are more jia lat than you. den u will know how fortunate you are."
yes, i also know how to say. but i just cant seem to convince myself.
