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Thursday, September 24, 2009Y

why is it that everything i do, to u is always..
wrong,
wrong,
wrong!!

seriously,
wae?! (why in hangul)
is it becuz the difference in viewpoint?
or i am really in the wrong?

oh well.
i just feel damn pressurised and constrain.
thinking back,
u rly dun support me in almost everthing i wish to do.

well, you tell me den
is it for my own good,
or for YOUR own gd.
i have my stand u know.
not ur puppet.
and make me think that wadever i do is freaking wrong.

this is not rebelling,
is realising.
realising wads happening ard and reflecting.

yes yes excuses.
wadever REASON (to me) is always an EXCUSE to you.
when will u ever believe me?
aish.

feeling bad.
damn bad.

4:03 AM

Wednesday, September 23, 2009Y

today i had lunch wid m1's fren's gf.
hahaha.
really really had a super nice time chatting! =)
bitch abt lots of stuff.
too bad she like super junior,
if nt we sure have more to talk abt! =)
meetup again too.
sorry for being late too =(

hmm.
finally saw some light.
planning to teach tuition.
gg to find a tutor agency online.
all thanks to cassandra dear~

well well.
after that rly nth liao.
but.
had a great time.
WHEE~

mentoring tml..
aish.

8:57 PM

[unsuitable for those seeking lameness here]
well,
its time i do some reflection.
half of the holis are gone and all i did was..

1. video hunting
2. pic hunting
3. slp
4. spend money
5. staying overnite
6. slack like no tmr.

OH GOD.
ridiculous man.
i was supposed to get a job and earn some pocket money.
in the end.
aiya.
use mouth only.
cuz all the words i said are free also wad.

anyway,
i know my mum rly disapproved me of not returning home.
but seriously to me a house to me is another place to stay.
i rly cant feel any family warmth from here.
DEAD.
COLD.
LIFELESS.
wadever u wanna name it.
my stupid vocabs are also limited.
the truth is, i really really hate going back home.

wherelse,
at jagiya (jy) place, i could always feel the family warmness.
the laughter.
damn loud oso.
a place where u would wan to be and call it "HOME"
i am really really happy staying there.
but also a pest to them as i kp on impose them.
mianne jagiya. =(

thanks to her mum and jagiya herself,
at least i feel that i am heard, someone is there to care for me.
is not like when u return home,
mum is slping, nothing to talk abt except for "mei ah, eat any"
i rather be a little poorer financially
but recieve lots and lots of love from both of my parents.

m1 gives lots of care and concern to me.
was really really glad that he is also there when i needed someone.
so SUPER grateful~

although expressing all my thoughts here wun change anything,
but at least i feel better, hell lot man.

so people,
if u and ur siblings always quarrel,
parents always naggin at you,
just be extra and super duper thankful to have all these rather than having silence.
you might say that
"hey, look at other families whose situation are more jia lat than you.
den u will know how fortunate you are."

yes,
i also know how to say.
but i just cant seem to convince myself.

anyway,
tats all.
gotta find a job asap. =(

1:00 AM

Thursday, September 17, 2009Y

yes.
i haven been blogging for like almost 2months.
and sorry to tell all of u tat there will be no photos to upload today.

as..
I LOST MY HANDPHONE.
my youngsaengie~
somemore the HP m1 bought for me de lo.
WA LAU~

ARGH.
I AM DAMN BLOODY ANGRY.
WHOEVER THAT PERSON IS WHO TOOK MY HP LIKE DESPO FOR MONEY.
WILL GET UGLIER AND UGLIER,
AND ALLTHE BAD STUFF WILL JUST HAPPEN TO HIM/HER.
DAMN YOU.
unless u return it to me =)

now.
i got a new SIM card.
SO WAD?
and the damn SIM card doesnt seem to activate.
its been like a day now.
and no reception still.

my NOKIA hp oso sot sot de lo.
act wad emo. IDIOT.
the batt is always flat.
i dunno why the hell tat happen.

but i can tell u the phone is completely of no use to me.
cant send sms.
cant call
cant DO ANYTHING!

worse thing is?
cant upgrade my phone cuz my plan has nt end yet.
have to wait for A YEAR.
A YEAR LO!!!!!
FU*K x123456789678998765489876543356789987543567
WAD THE HELL.
shoudnt have help him* to get a new phone tat time
(yes yes, i am selfish de)
now i cant even upgrade.
DAMN IT LA.
why is all these shit happening to me.

also.
all my contacts are lost.
holy crap.
so kindly send me your contact thru msn(as offline msg)
i will appreciate it.

anyway
thanks to BABY.
who is by my side cursing the person who took my phone.
helping me like no tml to call my HP when its lost.
OH YA!
and spend loads of days together video hunting and slacking!!!
GOMAWO JAGIYA.
and she bought me a blazer which i wanted as a bday present!!
CHUAHYO~
KAMSAMHAMNIDA JAGIYA.
SARANGHAE~

haiz.
wad to do.
BLAME MYSELF LO.
EAT OWNSELF LO.
anyway,

AHHHHHHHHHH!

YOUNG SAENGIE~

saranghae~ mianne kim bum.

wad the hell is wrong wid blogger?

still so shitty.

haiz.

still dun feel shiok after complaining.

aish.

8:38 PM

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