hey there. goin to write some reflections and thoughts i have on mind. so if u are nt interested, it ok to click the cross on the red box. HERE i go.
first thing first, after my brother's POP or wad it is known as passing out parade, he was posted to some sort of slack vocation he was rly disappointed. i feel sad for him. i mean, was it becuz of his education lvl tat affected this? or was it tat he was nt gd enough in terms of fitness?
i asked him all those, but he said tat some of is platoon mates are worse than him, are entering commanding sch like OCS. haiz. a while ago, he asked me whether i asked m1 the reason why he was nt posted in a gd vocation. didnt know wad to reply to him. i think he is utterly disappointed. he kept complaining tat he is goin to signal(the vocation) but wad can i do?
why do things always nt turn out the way we wanted it to be? sigh.
secondly, was disappointed wid my results. well, last min study is definitely a no-no for me. plus, i guess i didnt put in enough effort n time. tats why. so i am rly goin to work hard in yr 2. i hope the motivation lvl i am having rite now can last me till the end of my poly life.
thirdly, i have a sudden feeling tat i do not have really best frens ard me to confide my feelings into. either they are too busy, or they have their own problems to bother. well, it's like i am always seeking for friends to acc me. like i am some sort of despo. but none wld actually ask me out. like they are shunning away from me.
i do know tat i have m1. but i still wans to hang out wid friends. =( sometimes it rly tears me apart when the time i have to meet m1 clashes wid the time i have to meet my friends. n both parties dun understand the feeling of this.
i am aware tat i have alot of close friends, like baby, dear, sweetie, wh, jacky, jas, FOUR, 4abs, TGIAD clique.... so on, but still, i feel like i am all ALONE by myself. really dunno wad to say.......
lastly, i rly dunno wad i am choosing or doing now is correct, or is everything now is a mess, i do hope tat everything will be in place soon. sometimes growing up is a bad thing. other times, its colourful. well, no matter wad, i just hope for the better. =)
